Back in 2025 I was at my absolute bottom point. I had long covid that had graduated to ME/CFS and was all but bed bound. There wasn’t even a treatment plan for it, and the healthcare system here is so obscenely ass that I couldn’t even get a diagnosis, so I put a date in the calendar to die. Forunately I had nothing left to lose at that point, so I got some sketchy rapamycin pills and tirzepatide vials from Indian resellers, and about a year later, I’m almost healthy enough to go back to college part-time.

Don’t kill yourself yet folks. Medicine is still advancing very quickly. Make sure to exhaust all of your options before you do it. Do some research on new medicines and therapies. If you think you’re on your way out anyways, don’t be afraid to do something risky.

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Queer acceptance scales very closely with HDI with a 5-20 year lag. The actual causes I believe are poverty reduction, achieved higher education, urbanization, and most recently, internet access, which are all major HDI contributors.

(There’s also a big contributing factor outside of HDI, which is queer legislation eg., sodomy laws, gay marriage, name/gender changing, surgery, hormone therapy. This more or less defines the boundaries of how much or little queer acceptance is allowed within a country for reasons I do not understand)

There’s some capitalist tricknology embedded in HDI because of its use of nominal GDP/capita rather than GDP(PPP)/capita, but it’s very widely used and good enough for this application.

By queer acceptance I’m talking about reduced hate crimes, and myriad trust-me-bro self-surveys, because it’s a somewhat nebulous concept.

There are of course some very obvious outliers. Rich, extraction based countries (UAE, Bahrain) have a lower than expected rate of acceptance. Poor, tourism based countries (Thailand, Cuba) have much higher acceptance rates than expected.

There’s also a very noticable East-West divide on which queers are accepted. Western nations strongly prefer cisgender homosexuals, and asian nations are conparatively more lenient when it comes to binary trans people.

The HDI-queer connection makes a lot of sense dialectically. The further advanced capitalism becomes in a nation, the more thouroughly the vestiges of feudalism are liquidated until a breaking point is reached where they can no longer justify the rigid gender norms that engender queerphobias.

Just gave myself the ick

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Ironically it was the hard sciences that kept me deluded for much longer than necessary. They really instill a false sense of knowing.

I despise western chauvanism, and I see it everywhere now. I’m in the hard sciences right now, and you’d be suprised how woefully entrenched educated liberals still are, even after seeing multiple simultaneous genocides facitiltated by their oh-so progressive liberal parties. It is impossible to confront them and not see the disgust in their eyes.

The Thailand thing has been happening at all 800+ US military bases since the fifties. It’s kind of crazy people don’t know about this stuff.

This whole post is selfcrit veiled in humor. I look at my former self with extreme contempt.

I’m exaggerating for comedic effect here. I don’t actually want to be a piece of shit liberal again. “Schizophrenic Islamist” isn’t something a modern Marxist-Leninist would ever dare udder about someone else, especially in the current geopolitical situation, where Islam has become a massive anti-imperial counterweight. I’m pointing out here how stifling the atmosphere is in liberal countries when it comes to recounting very real war crimes.

so true king

Trans people are more accepted than gay people in many asian countries. I’m not sure why this is.

Dialectics were pretty straightforeward for me because they show up constantly in chemistry and biology.

Honestly, I’ve never seen a better incarnation of a dialectic than a chemical reaction reaching equilibrium under one set of conditions and then changing to meet a different equilibrium under different circumstances.

I miss not caring about the dialectical nature of the manifold intersections of mundane bullshit. I feel like such a freak.

Like, I don’t wanna feel compelled to tell Jessica the 200 year history of why she’s in medical debt.

This guy is a limited hangout personified.

Gordan Chang is a Chinese psyop to make Americans even stupider. Bless.

I really wish China was as good as the US at manufacturing color revolutions and installing comprador regimes.

We’re still in the early days of organization in the imperial core. People simply have no idea what to look for in a leader.

So far Mamdani is a just a city mayor, but also the de-facto leader of the American socialist movement in the eyes of the public. He will eventually need to superceeded as unprecedented changes to material reality continue to occur.