Apologies. I could have explained my reasoning. Many would look upon my living conditions as not good, but not abject. I’ve been extremely privileged in that I’ve turned down not great-paying jobs because while trained in them, I found them morally objectionable. I’m close to old age than not. I’ve been fortunate to have had some help. And if I didn’t? Would I spend my last twenty on a few meals or a bit of crack to rerock to sell for profit, buy a little more, rinse and repeat? I’d love to say I’d take the moral high road. I still have extra weight, you know?

I trust the universe and I trust myself. Plus it’s highly likely that at this late hour, any addict would likely be highly suspicious if I suddenly started trying to sell dope. I’m acknowledging there are things we see and are unable to see at various vantage points. Your post just prompted questions to which it’s easy to say I’d this things and not the other, from this vantage point. Perhaps later in life I’ll have attained a point with more or less ability to see clearly. We hope and trust, potentialities are infinite – in every imaginable direction.

This makes accountability neither more nor less important. Just an observation.